Monthly Archives: January 2013

sometimes I miss you, when you’re gone and I’m grasping at life

sometimes the telephone wires are less of a friend than you would believe

and the shadows on the winter walls make me think of still-born Christmas carolers, gone away

behind the sheetrock where it’s two degrees less cold.


sometimes I wish I could slip back there with them—

one collective memory of the way life was, when it was applicable;

between worlds

where the creak of a board, flutter of a curtain could mean anything,

but these four verbs:

leaving, taking, going, forever

mean nothing and nothing at all,



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12/28/12-1/2/13 {Charleston, SC}





~A winter to remember~

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2012 reading– and beyond!!

I always keep track of the books I read (like any good reader, har har har). I used to keep track on goodreads, but I got intimidated by the fact that it was asking me to rank books in a five-star system. It was too much for me. I am a wuss. So! This post is sort of to chronicle my reading SOMEWHERE, so I can look back on it later.

(* denotes a reread)

  1. Lucky (Alice Sebold)
  2. Catching Fire (Suzanne Collins)
  3. Mockingjay (Suzanne Collins)
  4. Life in a Day (Doris Grumbach)
  5. Swimming (Joanna Hershon)
  6. Now Is the Time: 170 Ways to Seize the Moment (Patrick Lindsay)
  7. The Long Walk (Stephen King)
  8. The Running Man (Stephen King)
  9. The Green Mile (Stephen King)
  10. The Witching Hour (Anne Rice)
  11. The Old Man and the Sea (Ernest Hemingway)
  12. Lasher (Anne Rice)
  13.  The Precious Present (Spencer Johnson)
  14.  Squirrel Seeks Chipmunk (David Sedaris)
  15.  Taltos (Anne Rice)
  16. Plain Truth (Jodi Picoult)
  17. The Eye of the World (Robert Jordan)
  18.  The Great Hunt (Robert Jordan)
  19.  The Dragon Reborn (Robert Jordan)
  20.  Candide, or Optimism (Voltaire)
  21.  The Shack (William P. Young)
  22.  Death Note 13: How to Read (T. Ohba & T. Obata)
  23.  Death Note: Another Note, The Los Angeles BB Murder Cases (Nisioisin)
  24.  Death Note: Volume One: Boredom (Tsugumi Ohba & Takeshi Obata)
  25.  Death Note: Volume Two: Confluence (Tsugumi Ohba & Takeshi Obata)
  26.  Death Note: Volume Three: Hard Run (Tsugumi Ohba & Takeshi Obata)
  27.  Death Note: Volume Four: Love (Tsugumi Ohba & Takeshi Obata)
  28.  Death Note: Volume Five: Whiteout (Tsugumi Ohba & Takeshi Obata)
  29.  Death Note: Volume Six: Give-and-Take (Tsugumi Ohba & Takeshi Obata)
  30.  Death Note: Volume Seven: Zero (Tsugumi Ohba & Takeshi Obata)
  31.  Death Note: Volume Eight: Target (Tsugumi Ohba & Takeshi Obata)
  32.  Death Note: Volume Nine: Contact (Tsugumi Ohba & Takeshi Obata)
  33.  Death Note: Volume Ten: Deletion (Tsugumi Ohba & Takeshi Obata)
  34.  Death Note: Volume Eleven: Kindred Spirit (Tsugumi Ohba & Takeshi Obata)
  35.  Death Note: Volume Twelve: Finis (Tsugumi Ohba & Takeshi Obata)
  36.  The Dead Zone (Stephen King)
  37.  The Dogs of Babel (Carolyn Parkhurst)
  38.  Snow Flower and the Secret Fan (Lisa See)
  39.  The Velveteen Rabbit (Margery Williams) *
  40.  The Road (Cormac McCarthy)
  41.  East of Eden (John Steinbeck)
  42.  Anna Karenina (Leo Tolstoy)
  43.  Erec Rex: The Dragon’s Eye (Kaza Kingsley)
  44.  Erec Rex: The Monsters of Otherness (Kaza Kingsley)
  45.  Four Past Midnight (Stephen King)
  46.  Exquisite Corpse (Poppy Z. Brite)
  47.  A Walk to Remember (Nicholas Sparks)
  48. The Casual Vacancy (J.K. Rowling)
  49.  Lost Souls (Poppy Z. Brite)
  50.  Alice’s Adventures in Wonderland (Lewis Carroll)
  51.  The Severus Snape Paradigm: Outcast, Rebel, Hero (Logospilgrim)
  52.  The Summer Tree (Guy Gavriel Kay)

Incidentally, one of my only new year’s resolutions is to read more. (I always make two resolutions: read more, write more.) So, while last year I tipped 50, this year I’d like to read 100 books.

100 books! A HUNDRED.

To put this in perspective, I am a slow reader (also, you may notice that 12 of the books I read last year were actually manga volumes, which are *considerably* quicker fodder, eh hem ; ) ). For some people who read as often as me, 100 books might be a cinch. For me, it means cutting back a lot of the idle time I spend online when I get free time. It’s going to take dedication! Nerve! Verve, even!

I am ready. And god knows, I have the over-burdgeoning to-read shelf to prove it. Anyone else have this sort of crazy reading-resolution fever?


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if spring never comes

I am thankful for the many-faceted glass,

the bending panes through which I perceive my own shadow.


I am thankful for the ever-pouring rain

on a day I can’t bear to say stop or anything but

wait,  listen.


I am thankful for the unending consumption of ages,

the lore of hidden passageways and adrenaline without consequence

resounding in my head.


I am thankful for the tree pushing through my garden, forcing its

small weight, a statement, into the still air.


I am thankful for remembering, when others seem to forget.


I am thankful for that winter when I put my hand on yours and our roles were reversed and

I was so glad you were alive.


I am thankful for the suspension of time as I read in some ill-lighted place,

my shadow stuck close to me.


I am thankful for the opening of my eyes each time I blink in

tiny sorrowful gifts and I believe this,

no matter what.


I am thankful for the snow outside my window yesterday,

(though I forgot to say it)

and today, and tomorrow,

even if I’m not there to receive it.


I am thankful for the thought of receiving

against the backdrop of uncertain tomorrows.


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